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| Well Today is Tuesday but i will update from Monday...
hmm lets see here. Well monday was my first day back being aloud to wear black and i got the usual goth comments. never any fun. yeah so hmm. i went to ccd, where the nightmare continued... *somtimes i just cant take this place anymore...if only they'd understand...* and then dance was long, Abbey came late, so i really didnt have a chance to talk to her much... yeah yesterday wasnt to good of a day...
Then there was today. oh so glorius tuesday...
yeah well today i wore pink and got yelled at my Sam, but thats okay. ao hmm math was funny, mr. greenberger was like retarded as ever. and in LA we went to the book fair thing and jake found a dragon poster...man o man, what a crazy kid...but yeah i bought the happy bunny poster... hmm yeah well jake also tried to steal my note today, never any fun, at least he didnt read it... yeah well today wasnt a good day either....*sighs*
yeah well i've been doing alot of thinking. i know im back to that again but still, its good for me i guess. well i guess life aint all cracked up to what its thought to be. i mean even if you are happy theres always that deep hurt inside, well for me at least. but no one understands me so why am i saying this...
I Love Erin Alot...so much i put this in pink just for her
<3 Lindsay
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| hmm wow okay, alot to say
Friday- Hmm well lets see here, i went to school, which was boring as usual. then after school i went over Nikki's house. oh what funnn. we walked 1/2 way to erics house and then turned back cuz we didnt feel like walking that way anymore. then we decided to go to the country store where we bought a 3 musketeers, soup, marshmellows, and a coke {now seriously how cool are we?} so yeah then we went back to her house and made the soup... haha. then we prank called eric...and then we dressed as twins and went to Teen Center. and it was there are Teen Center where i finally met my bestest friend Mike Castriota. hehe i love him. and yeah me and Nikki got matching tattoos and then she said im going to the Green Day concert with her so i was like OKAY! so yeah then i took her home and went to bed.
Saturday- Well yeah i woke up for dance, which was actually kind of fun. haha this little girl came up to us and was like "do you wear bras?" and were like "umm yeah" it was kinda weird. and then she tried to get us to play a game with her but thankfully we had to go back up stairs. so yeah then right after dance i had softball. and jordan had to leave early...which made me sad  . but yeah then mrs. anderson took me home. so then i found out i was going to the pirares game. and that was quite enjoyable, even though the guy in front of us kept making fun of me  i guess he didnt like my singing....i mean come on is it that bad? so yeah and i even got a black pirates blanket outta the whole deal. then i came home, tried to stay up but i couldnt so i went to bed...
Sunday- Well yeah i couldnt really sleep today... it sucks. but anyways im not doing anything today which is kinda boring but thats okay. im just goina be cool and listen to music all day. hehe. but yeah, i guess sometimes im not in a good mood, sometimes im not me as some of you would say. but thats just something i gotta learn how to deal with. i guess the effect of depression never really leaves you...that sucks but i mean, i'll get used to it i guess...
8th grade dance anyone? possibly wearing a pink dress, i know scary...
<3 Lindsay
~I'll be fine pretending im OkAy..~
*I Wont say it, i wont say im in love...*
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| Hmm okay, sorry about the moody entry before, im better now, i promise
Hmm so lets see here, Wednesday...i was actually feeling happy for once in my life...i finally think im comin out of this depression. so yeah i dont think anything exciting happened yesterday... so moving on
Ahh yes, what a glorius day today was. Well, i woke up and i was happy and yeah. i got to school and when i went to LA the movies were quite sad. i alomst cried. hmm then tech ed was quite enjoyable too. and in Study Hall me and Lynsey went around asking teachers if they had anything for us to do. but they all said no, pityy. yeah and then hmm i was hyper the rest of the day i was hyper. so yeah then in LA we watched this sad movie {well to me it was} and yeah i almost cried like twice. and then JAKE made fun of me, damn him. and then he goes and says he kills rabbits with sling shots and frogs with firecrackers. and thats just plain out mean. so then i walked down to my moms office then to dance.
Well now im home and on the fone with my loves, sam and nikki.  so yes i dont have anything to do for the rest of the night.
TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY OF NO BLACK  YAAAAAAAAAAAAY im so happy/exited/and proud that i made it through the week of no blackness hehe
well im outie....cya
<3 Lindsay
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| Anyone have any good songs for my playlist thingyyy?
Hmm well today is Sunday, but lets back-track to Saturday. Well i woke up at 8, like usual to go to dance. then right after dance i had to go to softball practice at the batting cages. so i was there for a little bit then i came home and cut the grass  and i must say it was quite enjoyable. yeah then...my dad trusted me with a CHAINSAW yeah i felt special. Then i went over heidis for her bonfire with...Erin, Sarah, Kelsey, Jenna, Alex, Kelly, Adam, Leah, Megan and Kory. yeah soo that was fun too. everyone was using me as a pillow in the yard though...i felt loved. then we moved our botties to the basement. and we chilled there until everyone had to leave.
Well then theres today. i woke up with a really bad sore throat and a stomach ache and thats never any fun. so i walked downstairs and made my mom get me something to eat and then i watched The Nightmare Before Christmas {ty erin} so yeah then my parents left me to go to lowes. so i sat around all lazy like and made myself some soup...and now im here. so i have a feelin I'm not goina be doing anything today...so dont expect me to edit 
shit fuck, no black all this week,im goina dieeee. well at least no gothic comments for a week?
cut my wrist, slit my throat i dont think this can get any worse. Cry my tears, dry my eyes, i dont wanna watch time fly by. Pack my bags, say good-bye, i just wanna sit back and cry. Do my make-up covered in black, theres just something that i lack. Go to school, learn something new, all these kids are watching as my face turns blue. come home, talk on the phone, they just shouldve known, go to bed, say good-night, as i grab the knife my heart fills with fright. look around one last time, this is last and final good-bye.
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